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long time nv blog le..cos realli no tiem...now everyday reach home very late...still need to do hmk..blah blah etc...haiix...dunno when going to take the o lvl result lehx...very jing zhang lehx...hope to get gd grades of cos...but seems hard to me...although they keep on saying tt i no nid worry..but language ma...is hard to sae de lor...realli very bz lately...so will try to blog if i gt the time...hahas

lovedd.<3
.6:37 PM.

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saddness

very tired lately....didnt realli slp well...this yr 2007 started badly for me...still trying to cope with a lot of things...so didnt even gt the time to blog!

on the first 3 days of sch...was nt in class...was handling the sec 1s...orientation...they were all very cute. innocent. n lovely. hahas...how shld i put it?? jus lyk them a lot...gt this bunch of juniors call me 'banana'...hahas didnt realli mind...actually i find them very fun n cute...especially is when they crowd ard me during recess...very fun...gt a 'close' feeling with them...even myself oso dunno y??? becos of the orientation so didnt attend any class n was very tired...was running all abt to make sure that things go well...

finally...3 days of orientation ended...tot that i could have a gd rest..but 人算不如天算，很多事冥冥中早已注定了!

jus after a day of rest...the nxt morning wake up...at ard 10+...i receive a call...my grandfather met an accident..but dunno in which hospital yet...we waited...for abt 7-8hrs in the hospital b4 he went...i didnt noe how to describe the feeling...this was the first time in MY LIFE that i cried until i feel lyk fainting...n eyes was swollen the nxt day...n having a great headache...mayb is becos i was close to him....i still rmb very clearly how when i was young...he took care of me and wanted to take my bag for me...memories of him kept on coming back to me...i tried badly to hold my tears in the hospital...nt all my uncles n aunts were close to him...n one of my aunt still forbid me to crying...sae i cry will make my ah ma sadder...at tt pt of time i feel lyk slapping her...she has no feeling for ah gong...doesnt mean i DUN!!!...and wad's more...i m nt even crying in front of my ah ma...WAD"S THIS???? cant even cry???...

the first n last time that i was feel cold holding my ah gong's hand...on the hospital bed...see his heartbeat rate dropping as the time pass by...i knew there was no hope...i jus hope that i could hold his hand longer...ever since i grow up...enter sec sch...i was always busy with my stuff...hmk..tuition..prefects...cca...i rarely see him...the present i bought for him in china...i wanted to pass to him on chinese new yr...but he couldnt wait...

这都在一瞬间发生了...我几乎无法接受...很痛苦很难受...

but on mon i still went to sch...jus lyk any other normal day...on the outside i appeared as nth has happen...everything seems so different for me...i seems to be in the other dimension from the rest...after sch was the cca orientation for 2 days...but i did nt go...i rush to the wake straight after sch...so even though i was in sch on mon n tue morning...i feel lyk slping...i was at the wake till very late...slp very very late n need to wake up at abt 5+ in the morning...tue night...didnt even slp...was at the wake the whole day n night till wed...the funeral...didnt go to sch on wed...i noe very well that after wed...when i go back to sch...everything must return to normal...my emotions...everything...i jolly welll noe the goals i wanted n i have to work towards it 经管路有多难走...

there are tests waiting for me and a lot of lessons to catch up...lots n lots of things to do...during the math remedial this wk...i wonder whether was i realli pushing myself too hard???...i dont noe...but i noe there are lots more of things waiting for me to do...正在和时间赛跑的我能赢吗???

these few wks..trying to control and hide my emotions, trying to fulfil every tasks given to me, and alot of troubles that i need to handle n settle...有时我真的在想我是否还能撑得下去...我...到底还能撑多久???但最起码我知道我已经尽力地去做好每一件事了...

加油！你一定行的！不要被命运打败！要坚强！=)

lovedd.<3
.9:17 PM.

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有意思的...
-能忘记是一种幸福~
-因为失去过，所以更懂得珍惜！
-麻醉药就像耐不了高温的塑胶，慢慢的化成黏糊滴在伤口上，又是一阵巨痛。

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